How Rubbish

am I!!!!!
I haven't cleared an area for a couple of days. However the house is looking good, am clearing up rather than leaving stuff till later.

Work started again this week, and John is away (in Las Vegas), and the littlest one decided to be nocturnal. So my excuse is that I have been sleep deprived and over worked. Oh yes forgot just to add to it, a huge dose of PMT - resolved now!.

My challenge now is to find an area and clear it. Be back in half an hour.

Back!

An hour and 18 minutes later.
Whilst on task I started to think about the devices I use to enable myself to clear stuff. For example.
Time games.
Set the clock for 15 mins - seeing if I can clear the area in that time.
Putting music on that I love and that motivates me.
Putting radio 4 on.
Setting little tasks rather than big ones ie - clear a box, clear a top, clear a corner - rather than clear the room.

best of all it is working. It is not overwhelming, and it is working!
A lifetime of it not working too.
The trick is to keep breathing.
The trick is not to think to deeply.
The trick is live in the moment.

So I went to my bed room, and cleared a suitcase that had been by my bed for over a month - no - almost two months!(oh the shame). Children's clothes in it, my clothes in it, a bit of sand from a previous holiday in it etc etc.
Then on to some un-emptied clean washing bags, under the bed etc. Whilst radio 4 was on. No thinking allowed.

I did start to worry that maybe I would stop being able to do every thing I have been able to do; Like take pictures, make films, write plays. Then I stopped worrying.

Ohhhh I do worry.

Bear in mind whilst I write this that I sit in my untouched study room, which is packed to the gunnel's with bits, and rubbish.

This is next on the list.

Over and very much out.